My Story

 My name is Brylee, and I'm a Cadette in Girl Scouts. I had to choose what to do for my Silver Award, and I chose suicide awareness because suicide has affected my life. Because I have had to live with what my family has gone through, I am now aware of mental health issues and how important it is for everyone's happiness.
When I was 11 years old, I lost one of my best friends to suicide: my dad. It was one of the hardest things in my life. I could barely go to school and dealt with anxiety and depression... and still do. Thankfully, I had my family and friends there for me. If I didn't have that support, I don't know what I would have done those first few months without my dad.
Life was so different. I felt like there was a huge piece of my heart taken out of me. I guess life got a little better with therapy, but it wasn't the same without him. Those skills that I learned like breathing and dealing with anger and frustration in a positive way have made me strong.
  Then I started 7th grade, which was in the high school, and that was a huge change for me because I would have more stuff on my plate. I was stressed.
Then, October 17, 2018, I lost one of my closest family members, my aunt, to suicide.
I felt like everyone was leaving me, and I felt like there was no purpose to living anymore. I felt like I was better off gone than living. I felt like no one understood what I was going through.
My friends were making it worse. I got into a lot of drama with my friends. they were putting a limit on my grief and they were insensitive and impatient with me. They didn't get it.
Then, May 2,2019, my uncle passed away from suicide.
It was really hard because I wondered, "is this the right way to die" and "why is everyone in my family doing this?" All of these negative thoughts were in my head, and I knew I needed to get help because there are people out there that can help you get better. 
I don't know the full answer why they left us, but one part of it that I know is that they all dealt with depression and anxiety. I am learning how to deal with my emotions too. I hope you learn something new about suicide prevention from my website.